Never have I been so bored recently. I hate being at home. My host is so fucking annoying it's unbeleivveable. You can be whiny and picky- but she just takes the piss. Cannot wait to turn 18 and just duck out. Also, I've just been feeling down I feel that not many people are paying attention to me and my college work is getting worse- if i carry on handing work in late I swear I'm gonna fail this course- not something I want to do. Hmm. I need to get laid soon. It gets me down that I don't get any male attention either.... hmm. Life is just getting stagnant for me.

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Ash

Today was the laziest day I've ever had. Seriously. I didn't get outta bed till 4pm. That is so disgusting. Never have I been so sloth-like. Helped my cousin tidy up the place and just sat on Twitter all evening. I feel a lot better. One thing that's annoyed me is that my auntie keeps telling me to eat! I mean seriously, she cooked way too much food and she doesn't want it to go to waste. Hmmm. Feeling a bit drowsy. But I'm good. Gona try and enjoy the rest of this holiday. My cousin's having a New Year's party, so I gotta go there and dun the dance. lol. And I've got tons of late homework to complete. SHEEEEEEEEET! But yeahh. :)

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Ash

Well...

lol. Hi! This is my first blog. My friend from college told me about this, and I thought I'd check it out. So it's Christmas in London. Mine flopped DIFFERENTLY. I spent it with my aunt and my cousin and I've never been so embarrassed. Seriously. She was so drunk. The woman was drinking from Chistmas Eve. Embarrassed me and my cousin so much, and she was drunk on the 25th and 26th! Gosh! And then, to top it all off, my mum showed up. I finally thought I was over her not wanting to be a part of my life, but it hit me so badly. I felt like I was fading into the background, and it got to a point when I walked out of the door with tears streaming down my face- and I haven't cried about this for so long. My mother hasn't said hello to me in over 18 months, and then she says hi to me! Argh! And my little sisters pised me off. Honestly, absence may make the heart grow fonder but it killed my patience. And did I mention that my auntie's homophobic? I explained to her about me being gay and she said that she was disappointed in my choice and how that she thought e being camp was to get attention. KMT. And to top it off shesems to think I go round with anybody and that she doesn't understand why I like men. Oh my God. Seriously. Anway- this is too much for my first blog. Happy holidays and peace out.
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Ash